My Alien Love Bite Story
A Treatise, by KarinLLightworker
January 1, 2017
Part of my Lightworker mission is to chronicle my life experience as a Lightworker. I write articles, Open Letters, and newsletters for my website and blog; I also offer them to the blogosphere, plus put them as chapters in my books.
My recent life experience has been a love story with a man that was orchestrated and directed by interdimensional beings, archons, demons, reptilians or else they may be named. However, 'archons' has become the commonly used term for these galactic parasites that have been manipulating the human race for eons.
I am documenting my 'alien love bite' story for those who may have been under archon influence as well and may gain greater awareness from reading it. The fact of the alien love bite is barely known within the new age community and global ufology scene. Over the years I watched several interviews with Eve Lorgen, author of the books “The Alien Love Bite” and “The Dark Side of Cupid” which gave me an overview of this topic of otherworldly intervention in our human affairs.
After Paul's (not his real name) sudden breakup of our relationship I felt traumatized and was under shock and urgently needed to gain greater clarity of what had just happened and why. So I read the compressed version of “The Alien Love Bite” and the kindle book “The Dark Side of Cupid” by Eve Lorgen.
I am grateful for these books; I learned much and received new insights about my own love bite affair.
I knew already from Eve Lorgen's interviews that these interdimensional entities who orchestrate and manipulate love bite relationships do so to feed off their victim's energy. They have the means through their advanced technologies to enter our minds and dictate thoughts and even switch one partner off from the other. This is exactly what happened here, twice.
My previous archon interventions in the year 2015
The year 2015 was the hardest year of my life. In February my ex-husband suddenly died in his house in Southern California. We were in daily email contact and he wanted to relocate to my area to buy a place where we could live as next-door neighbors for mutual support. Shortly after Jim's death his son Michael hijacked his father's Kung Fu Grandmaster website, declared himself the Grandmaster, destroyed Jim's large website that represented his legacy, and created a fake website where he is selling his father's martial arts information. He erased my name to eliminate me from the picture. He went illegally to Jim's house and emptied it and took possession of everything, even though he was not the heir of anything. His father did not trust him. Presently he is illegally selling his father's estate without being the heir. I documented it in detail in my “Memorial for Jim Lacy” on my blog. To me it is archon intervention at work. Son Michael did not act like a healthy human, but like a criminal who hijacked and destroyed his father's legacy, and stole everything that is mine as Jim's widow.
After Jim's death I applied for widow's benefit and went through an ordeal with the Social Security administration. They first announced that I will receive $200 widow's benefit additionally to my retirement benefit plus a larger back payment. But then they changed their mind and cut off $200 from my other Social Security income so that I get no more than before I applied for widow's benefit, plus they kept my back payment. It would have lessened my struggle for survival if I had been given $200 more to live off.
To me the treatment to my disadvantage by the Social Security Admin is an indication of archon influence. Other Lightworkers also share their stories of archon manipulation, but may give these parasites different names. This is how they try to keep those who serve the Light down at the level of struggle for survival.
After this hardest year of my life I felt exhausted, drained and weakened. Jim had helped me in the past and now I was constantly financially struggling. Additionally I went through the hardship of moving to another town. My 1 ˝ year experience in the town of Yreka was mostly determined by rejection. I couldn't make any friends; I didn't fit in there.
Of course I am aware that the new agers will tell me whether I don't know that I create my own reality. I was one of them. I now have a broadened view; I now know that there is so much more to this perceived reality then I previously thought.
Then in February of 2016 I learned of inventor Dirk Laureyssens in the Netherlands. The Holon setup utilizes three nested glasses, with spaces in between as the membranes. He compares the Holon with the essence of the Buddhist temple.
According to him the three nested glasses represent the Trinity that Christianity speaks of as Father, Son, Holy Spirit. Everything in this world is based on this Trinity. Inventor Dirk teaches how we can use the Holon in practical ways in everyday life. We can make a transmitter out of it by healing ourselves, others, and the environment. The Holon can be used to heal entire cities.
I found it intriguing and felt inspired to set up a Holon, just out of curiosity. I put three pennies and a small glass ladybug as symbols of good luck on the bottom of the first inner glass.
Three weeks later Paul walked in my door and our love story unfolded in fairytale fashion. I was convinced that the Holon setup had brought about our encounter.
I described the love story in my 3-page Newsletter #16, “Quantumleaping and Timeline Jumping”, without mentioning the Holon. http://karinllightworker.com/blog/?page_id=732
Here is an excerpt:
Two of us of the Spirit of Prometheus had attracted each other and together we blasted through the Promethean Fire Mist. In a full day of sexual intertwining our signature frequencies were downloaded. He received mine, I received his. For a full day we showered each other with our mighty Promethean Love, while remembering and integrating who we are as avatars. With us was his guide Anais Nin, who delighted in our sacred wedding. She’s my new friend.
There were other onlookers, angels as well as demons, cheering us on in our fiery reunion.
To me the oh-so-long expected EVENT happened on this very day and I came out of the Promethean cauldron as a different person. I shifted dimensions, I shifted timelines, I integrated missing parts of me. Everything was real.
His wife of forty-three years had encouraged him to look for sexual pleasure outside the marriage, since as an artist he suffered from the absence of an inspiring muse.
It is not my style to interfere and intrude into a marriage and cause grief. It was all his doing. I was suspicious from day one whether he got the Alien Love Bite and is acting out irrationally. I allowed him into my door because I had never before in this lifetime met another of my own lineage. And admittedly, I was intrigued by the idea of taking on that assignment of serving as the muse for such a man.
Three days after our sexual intertwining he revealed to his wife that he had started an affair with me. He said she gave her consent, as promised. Two days later he wanted to come see me overnight to celebrate our third encounter. He told his wife that he would be back home in the morning. From that moment on some massive dragon slaying riot must have broken out there between the couple. She demanded to make his immediate choice between her and me and that if he goes to spend the night with me it will be the end of the 43-year marriage. The archetypes were wrestling!
To him, his wife embodied the 90% fulfillment within their long-term relationship. There was only an “irregular hole in the middle”, caused by the roaring of the second chakra, for he is someone who demands from the Universe the granting of 100% of everything. So at the end of their dragon slayings he chose the saving of the marriage. In their marriage quantum leap they came to the resolution to revive and reawaken their relationship and fill the irregular hole in the middle themselves, both together.
So he briefly called to let me know what they were in the middle of and that he will not come. He said that we cannot meet again and must end our two-day love affair. Even though through long practice I am pretty good at shifting energies, I suddenly felt trembling under my feet and I too went through a long night of battle with the archetypes. The downfall came very hard for me. Without a doubt all this is interdimentional intervention and manipulation. (End of excerpt.)
A week after Paul broke up with me he emailed again. I asked jokingly whether he's not afraid to be bitten again by those alien love bite specialists, and he complied, tongue in cheek, that of course he can't wait to be bitten again. From then on he came visiting me again, keeping it secret from his wife since - as he said - she was not yet at the level in her evolution to accept the situation.
The seven-months alien love bite story
I am going to write my story in chronological order for the purpose of analyzing it, afterward.
It became obvious to me that Paul is not the type of the normal faithful husband and that I haven't been his first affair. When I first saw his perforated wedding ring I perceived that it stands for his desire for erotic adventures, while the usual solid wedding band symbolizes to bond two people together. I wasn't guilt-ridden towards his wife, for if it were not me then it would be another woman.
I was in a similar position in my marriage. After I went through menopause I had no more sexual desires and my husband got frustrated. I realized that I have no right to demand that he has to accept this fact and suffer from our lack of a love life. So I told him many times to get a girlfriend, and that then we would all be best friends. But he rather wanted me to awaken my libido again. However, the relationship got more difficult overall and I left him after 15 years of marriage.
I think the husband as a sovereign being has a right to live out his sexuality if the wife is not interested anymore. The quality of the relationship will definitely go down if one partner lost sexual interest. Not all men will accept the moral, religious and societal rules of how we have to behave in our institution of marriage.
Paul told me at our first encounter that he had been putting out to the Universe his deepest heart's desire to send him his ideal lovemaking partner. This was his theme that he always spoke of, that he deserved for this wish to be granted. Three years ago he got involved with the Tantric Love scene in the Ashland area to find his Tantrika. He said he had sexual relations with several women, one lasted half a year, but he kept them secret from his wife.
It first was my particular spirituality that attracted him when reading some of my articles on my website and facebook. There was a true spiritual affinity, a rare spiritual foundation between us. A few days later, when he walked in my door and towards me, it was like two forces reuniting. He said he knew immediately that I am the one he has been looking for since he was a child.
He wanted to make me his Tantric consort, his Tantrika, his muse, his dream lover. I was eager to become his student to learn the art of Tantric Love. We assumed the roles of Shiva and Shakti, the divine lovers, the archetypes, the yin and yang of our world of polarity, the twin realities. We declared my little house in Yreka as my Shakti temple.
As prevention from further archon attacks, I did the night before our encounters a ritual for our protection and safety. And everything always went smoothly, there were never any problems. Every week for six months Paul came visiting me in Yreka, which meant a 45 minute ride for him. He came early in the morning and left at dusk. He kept our affair secret from his wife. He told her that he is teaching a friend in another town to paint and that they both once a week spend the whole day painting.
We became Shiva and Shakti and immersed ourselves in healing, celebration, and Tantra quantum leaping. We suspended time. We let the world “off the hook”.We had 25 Tantric celebrations in my Shakti temple.
We realized that we had been brought together for the purpose of healing. We both were sexually wounded by the past. Since it had been fifteen years that I had the last time intercourse with my then husband, the tissue of my vagina was hardened and intercourse was not possible. When I researched the topic I learned that it is a common problem for aging women and can be reversed through libido reawakening.
He also had a disability, suffering from erectile dysfunction (ED) for many years which meant a big wounded manhood issue for him. So we began our seven months healing mission as Shiva and Shakti and entered a world of magic and Love. We discovered that I was what he called “a natural” at Tantric love. He gave me the book “Sexual Energy Ecstasy”. Soon we had many Tantra yoga techniques and practices to choose from in our ten-hour long love-dance.
Paul also introduced me to “Orgasmic Meditation”, as developed by Nicole Daedone and taught in her book “Slow Sex”. Created for women it is about a partner stroking a woman's clitoris while she goes into meditation. A new world opened up for us. The contact point between my clitoris and his fingertip, of his electric and my magnetic current, created a delicious electromagnetic oneness experience. Of course I loved giving my Shiva OM-ings in my devotion to the healing of his lingam. In between our Tantric slow and hot waves of lovemaking we gave each other OM-ings for hours; the OM-ing sessions became one of our favorite segments of our celebrations as Shiva and Shakti. Like in a dance did we follow the rhythm of slow and hot. Also, massaging on the massage table was one of our favorite segments. At each celebration we performed a lingam ceremony with the large lingam crystal (representing the phallus of Shiva) that I own, which served as our healing facilitator.
When we sat embraced in yab-yum pose, with our chakras aligned, eye-gazing and breathing in unison, I could feel when we were getting downloads from our Higher Selves, as well as from each other. The feeling of oneness was supreme.
There was a magical flow between us during our day-long celebrations that felt like otherworldly. Neither of us had ever experienced such resonance, love, and bliss. We both were able to surrender to each other like never before. I could feel how we both were oozing Oxytocin, the Love Hormone, enveloping us like a pleasing aroma.
Our total concentration during the Tantric yoga exercises led us to levels of sexual power and pleasure that neither of us had known before. There was an erotic intensity and intimacy unlike anything we each had ever experienced. In our blissful fusion we saw our being together itself as a miracle. It took us beyond all of our conceptions of everyday reality, we got a taste of transcendental unity.
Throughout the day the buildup of our Kundalini energy elevated us into a continuous orgasmic state of complete relaxation, known as Tantric orgasm. Each celebration day led us into another quantum leap.
The next time we always started by weaving our energies together and melting into each other to reach the level where we had left off the week before. We awakened our natural inborn pleasure potential and we could never get enough of each other. The entire tone of our relationship was orgasmic.
As we sustained our enchantment Paul again and again rose his arms and prayed, “Thank you God for Karin”.
In embodying the archetypes we became aware that the eternal wonder and mystery is that Shiva and Shakti are one and the same. The feeling of unity between us lovers guided us into a new expansion and elevation of awareness. We learned from our own experience of Tantra that our bodies are not the baggage, our bodies are the ticket to enlightenment. Tantra is the art of unblocked feeling.
There was a time when Paul found that we didn't make enough progress in our healing of his ED, he felt discouraged. I asked him whether there is a possibility that a woman in the past could have put a curse on him. He said that two particular women could have done so. Curses are archon intervention. I offered assistance in revoking potential curses. He considered to think about it, but we didn't talk about it again.
His creativity as an artist was spilling over into painting, music, writing. His music became a major part of our healing process. In his role as Shiva he composed piece after piece on the guitar, which we recorded.
About four months into the relationship was his 75th birthday. He had mentioned his birthday only once at the beginning to learn about our astrological compatibilities. The day after his birthday I discovered that he has a facebook page. He wrote there that his wife dedicated the entire month to his 75th birthday and how they celebrated the event with family and friends.
I was overcome with deep sadness and became suddenly aware that I, in my role as his mistress, am left out of his life. I am the cause of his new-found fulfillment and happiness, yet I will not be mentioned anywhere. I am pushed into obscurity, into hiding. I realized that the affair was a continuation of my life's theme, always the outsider, always left out, excluded, and not belonging.
I became aware that I had outgrown the role of the mistress. I did not like that I was his accomplice who had to go along with his deceiving and lying to his wife. And of course if he lies to his dear wife of 43 years then he may lie to me, too.
I clearly saw the imbalance that is inherent in a triangle relationship. I was the gap filler. There was no equality included in the affair package of the missing 10% of fulfillment in his life that I had assigned to. Paul's response was that I as Shakti should be above these mundane concerns.
I reminded myself that my primary identity is being a Lightworker. I came here as a volunteer, to assist in ushering humanity through the Shift of the Ages. We the human family are now living through the birth pangs of this monumental transformation. It's an incredible hard time for all, individually and collectively.
I learned that cultivating spiritual hygiene is essential for me. I am practicing my connection to Source at all times in deliberate fashion. Not to be sidetracked into drama or trauma is the key. If I get pulled into lower vibrations, my 3D body takes a beating, I end up with physical symptoms.
I wrote Paul a letter that reading his facebook message triggered a crisis for me. Since he told me that he doesn't plan on telling his wife about us, I would have to continue to be his accomplice in the deception game. I said that I've outgrown that role. To me Tantric love and life includes honesty in everyday life. If we want to continue our liaison I would need to have some clear agreements in how to proceed, the same way he laid out the rules and conditions for me. I for myself want to follow a strategy of “no attachments, no expectations, only living in the now moment”.
Paul wanted to help me improve my poverty level in offering to work for him by booking his gigs and selling his art work. But he meant it happening in secrecy. I said I don't want further entanglements into secrecy and that I must stay with my strategy.
For months I had been looking to move to Ashland, Oregon, even before I met Paul. He very much wished for me to find a new rental place in his area, for it would be our next Shakti temple and we could see each other more often. In our Tantric lovemaking we practiced using the Kundalini energy for manifesting a rental place when we were in the flow of orgasmic cosmic waves. Paul went twice to look at a rental on my behalf, yet it turned out I didn't get it. I was wondering why our strong united desire did not manifest a place, despite my proactive search for it.
Then the opportunity arose to stay for awhile in a woman's rental cottage while she was going to visit her partner in another state. It turned out she is a dear friend of Paul.
I was for two months in the woman's cottage. It was our Shakti temple for five weeks, were we continued our full-day of Tantric celebration. We went from peak to peak, raising higher and higher in our sacred unions, quantum-leaping together in the healing of Shiva and Shakti. He also came to see me for shorter visits throughout the week. The last few weeks we were able to have intercourse, that is, we had accomplished the healing of our sexual disabilities. We were ready to take our Tantric lovemaking to the next level.
The switching-off breakup
Then it happened that his wife read his emails – and the truth about our relationship was now in the open. He emailed that his wife at this point “is communicating that she wants to move out. I am hoping that she will come to the point of accepting the situation”, he wrote.
And half a day later, on Sunday night: “It looks like things are calmed down for now. I will be there tomorrow morning to make beautiful love to my Shakti. You have come into my life as a blessing from infinite. I love you my Shakti.”, he re-assured me.
He said that during their 24 hour nonstop talking his wife argued that somebody like him should never have married in the first place and that he has been a burden to her.
The next morning he came to my Shakti temple for our 31st celebration. We were sitting on the bed, embraced in yab yum position, with our chakras aligned, eye-gazing and breathing in unison. We experienced oneness on a new level. My beloved Shiva guided us back through a time where we had been living the same experience, in a luxurious tent in an oriental setting. We were passionate lovers before, as Shiva and Shakti. Everything felt sacred.
It was our 31st and last celebration as Shiva and Shakti.
In the evening of the next day Paul called to let me know that he and his wife again had a 24-hour marathon talking without sleep. With a strange voice he told me that he had again to choose between the marriage and me. And again he chose the marriage. It was the exact repetition of the pattern from seven months ago when he broke up with me; when they both came to the conclusion to save and improve their marriage and to let go of the mistress.
Then he said that his wife is listening in and suddenly she took over and spoke to me. Shortly after the phone line got interrupted. I went into shock. Then the archon attack happened. My body got suddenly icy-cold, my heart was racing, I felt an unpleasant sensation in the lower back of my spine, and I felt the energy being sucked out of my first and second chakra. At the same time I got hit by a force in the solar plexus and felt pain in my stomach. (This stomach pain subsided after three weeks.) I suddenly could not remember what Paul and his wife had just said to me, my memory was like erased. I was in a state of psychic and physical pain that was almost unbearable.
I called upon my guidance, trying to regain my balance throughout the night.
The whole situation now appeared to me like a plot, or a narrative, designed on purpose to bring me emotionally down, get me out of balance and weakened by creating havoc in my life.
When I heard Paul's voice it felt as if he were somebody else. It was exactly the same voice that he had when he broke up with me the first time, seven months ago. There was an energy of cowardliness in his voice, then and this time, that shocked me, for it was not like his voice, instead his voice was altered. After the call got interrupted I instantly became aware that this is an archon attack on me as a Lightworker. I had a strong impression that his wife had been used by non-physical beings to mind-control Paul for the last 24 hours of nonstop talking without sleep until they got him to make that call while she was the overseer listening to what he said and then herself speaking to me. It all sounded to me as if they both were acting under mind control.
I believe they both may have been archon-influenced for a long time. Paul told me that when he met his wife she was involved with the church of Scientology and he joined in and they both became members for forty years. The scientology cult has a reputation of brainwashing and controlling its members and definitely is a fertile feeding ground for intergalactic entities. The affairs he had throughout his marriage could all have been followed the same pattern of interference from those 'alien love bite specialists'. Paul mentioned in an article his estranged two sons and the suicide of his youngest son which I think could have been alien interventions. In fact, most certainly they were.
Archons are the masters of deception and lying; they want us to become like them. They have been manipulating and feeding off humanity for eons. However, they are just non-physical inorganic parasites. They can only intervene and use us as puppets as long as we don't know about them. The key is to consciously and deliberately raise our vibration out of their influence by becoming sovereign creators and fully living from the heart.
Analysis of my alien love bite relationship
My purpose for this treatise is to unravel the Archon influence in my seven-months love affair and to learn from it, as well as to share it with others who are interested in this topic.
Even before we met in person Paul laid out the framework or parameters for my role as his secret lover.
He explained that his wife of 43 years plays the role of the queen in their 3D world and that she embodies the 90% fulfillment within their long-term relationship, but there's the 10% missing as the irregular hole in the middle of his life, that I fit in perfectly.
Seven months ago, after our second encounter, Paul revealed to his wife that he had started an affair with me; he said she gave her consent, as promised. Two days later when he wanted to go see me overnight in Yreka, a battle broke out between the couple. She demanded to make his immediate choice between her and me and threatened with divorce. This was the moment when Paul got switched off from me and he called to briefly let me know that he must end our affair. At that moment I felt as if the ground was pulled away from underneath me and I had to lay down. I had no doubt that the break-up was an archon attack.
Eve Lorgen describes in her books the cases of alien love bite stories. The majority of them are individuals who were alien abductees, alien contactees, Milab – Secred Space Program Military abductions, MKUltra victims, etc. They usually contacted Eve Lorgen after they went through a dramatic and traumatic relationship, arranged by aliens. They all suffered from energy drainage by their parasitic handlers. Eve Lorgen also describes that the partners who appeared to have an attached entity exhibit narcissistic patterns of behavior.
In my case I do not match these regular traits of an alien love bite candidate. I never had an alien abduction or alien encounters. I have seen ufos, but nothing spectacular involved; no Milab experience, etc. As I said, I never felt drained, exhausted, or weakened during the seven months relationship, only elevated, healed, energized, and loved by my ideal Tantric consort. As I described above, we both were in a heavenly state of quantum leaping for over seven months.
However, like in Eve Lorgen's cases, my lover was switched off from me, at the beginning and again seven months later when he broke up with me permanently.
I'd like to insert here my experience with the Lemurian Pilot Council.
The Lemurian Pilot Council
In 2011, when I lived in Mount Shasta, I was involved with a group led by a young man who channeled Saint Germain and Lemurian beings from the inner Earth. He claimed to be their messenger. His mission was to gather a Lemurian pilot group in preparation for being allowed to visit the legendary city of Telos beneath Mount Shasta. After three months there was an incident which revealed that we all had been duped by some non-physical entities. We were hoodwinked by some lingering astral tricksters who told us that they were waiting right above us in a cloaked craft to take us inside the mountain. They manipulated and fooled us and had fun with us. However, nobody got hurt or lost money. It was definitely a lesson for all involved in practicing discernment when dealing with the spirit world.
In hindsight, I think one of the major lessons of our group experience as the Lemurian Pilot Council was to experience deception. It was an experience of great depth for all involved, and I’m sure each one of us participants cherishes the remembrance of this 3-months period of intense vision quest and exploration. The 3-page story is on my blog: “The Lemurian Pilot Council”.
Archons are able to enter our minds and feed us thoughts without us questioning that they are not our own. They have technology that can cause amnesic barriers in our mind. They can implant etheric non-physical hypnotic codes and triggers so that the person being manipulated would never understand his role. As described in my love story, one partner can suddenly be switched off emotionally, or psychically unplugged. This applies not just to love bite stories, but can happen within all human interactions.
Deception is one of their main tools to keep the population functioning at the lower 3D level of fear of existence. Deception causes confusion. Confused people are fearful and easy to herd into mass obedience by their leaders and controllers.
Also, deception is one of the major lessons of these End Times. Nonetheless, whatever it is we go through offers unprecedented opportunities for learning on schoolhouse Earth.
Judgment was essential in navigating through the 3D world of duality. In order to be able to live in the frequency range of the 5th dimension we each must master the learning curve “from judgment to discernment.” It actually cannot be taught, it must be practiced from within. It requires going into the heart and asking which feels like the truth. Letting go of judgment takes practice.
As we as the human race awaken from the dream and reclaim our sovereignty as divine creators on Earth the old adage of “Know Yourself” becomes a new meaning.
Expressions of Love
In retrospect, I am trying to come to terms with the sudden breakup of such exquisite and delicious love story. Paul was warm, affectionate, and loving. How much I miss bathing in his sweet love. He had awakened my libido and brought me to a new level of body experience. For the first time I had met somebody of my own lineage. There was such beautiful spiritual foundation, which I have never experienced before. I meant so much to him. Early on he had recognized the angelic part of me and he loved my childlike nature that is shining through from it. He said he could never again let go of me, and that I have no idea what a difference I make in his life. I'm God's gift to him and he will make our relationship work within his marriage.
We daily wrote email love letters, we practiced telepathic exercises to deepen our connection, we had telephone sex, we arranged to meet at night in the quantum field, were we melted into each others' spirit arms. We had code words, such as “Machu Picchu” symbolizing our matching together like Machu Picchu stones, with not even a razor blade space in between.
I now ask myself, were the following poetic paragraphs his own thoughts and feelings or were they inserted into his mind? Were they implanted for the purpose to bond us and then later separate us? Did they erase his memory of our love story and cause a personality shift?
I actually know very little about him and how he lives his life. From what he said he seemed to be a very busy person. He mentors and counsels people, and seems to know a lot of local people.
Excerpts from his Love letters
I HAVE THIRSTED FOR THAT PART OF MY CAPACITY TO BE SATIATED FOR AS FAR BACK AS I CAN REMEMBER AND I AM FAMILIAR WITH THE AKASHIC RECORDS. IT SO HAPPENS THAT MY SHAKTI BROUGHT ME THIS SATIATION AND BLISS AND GROWTH AND ASCENSION AND PASSION AND THE DEEPEST LOVE THIS CONFIGURATION IS CAPABLE OF. MY SHAKTI IS THE QUEEN OF MY HEAVEN AS MY WIFE IS THE QUEEN OF MY THIRD DENSITY.
YOU ARE TRULY MY SHAKTI AND I RECOGNIZE MYSELF AS YOUR SHIVA. I LOOK AT THE AKASHIC RECORD AND DON'T FIND A BEING WHO HAS SO EMBODIED SHAKTI THAT HER ENERGY CONFIGURATION HAS PERMANENTLY BEEN ALTERED. I AM HER SHIVA AS LONG AS SHE WILL HAVE ME. HER ENERGY FIELD OPENED TO HIS EXACT EXTENDED SHAPE AND CHANGED HER, BROUGHT HER CLOSER TO HER TRUE SELF.
YOU ARE GODDESS SHAKTI, MY PERSONAL SHAKTI. NO ONE ELSE'S SHAKTI. MINE! I HAVE CHECKED MY PAST AND NO I NEVER FOUND MY SHAKTI UNTIL RECENTLY. NO OTHER ENERGY CONFIGURATION EVER MATCHED THIS CONFIGURATION WITH SUCH YIN YANG SHAKTI SHIVA MACHU PICHU TANGO PRECISION.
I AM UP FOR CONTINUING TO EXPLORE THE OUTER LIMITS OF EXPANSION. YES, AND YOU BECAME TRANSFORMED TO YOUR ANGELIC NATIVE STATE IN THE PROCESS. IT IS YOUR ASSIGNMENT FOR MORE LIFETIMES THAN YOU CAN REMEMBER. YOUR ROLE AS MY SHAKTI AFFIRMS AND EMBRACES EVERYTHING YOU ARE. YOU ARE A COSMIC BEING AND YOU COCREATE MAGNIFICENCE.
In regards to my role as his secret lover he wrote: KNOW THAT YOU ARE SECRETLY THE CAUSE OF SUCH BRILLIANCE AND LIGHT. YOU CAN JUST KNOW SOMETHING THAT NO ONE IN THE UNIVERSE KNOWS. UNKNOWN AND UNACKNOLEGED EXCEPT BY GOD. YOU HAVE SONGS WRITTEN ABOUT YOU AND INSPIRED BY. HOW IMPORTANT IS THAT. GOD GIVES OUT ANGEL WINGS AS REWARD FOR SUCH GREATNESS.
When Paul told me that he is also a professional actor, I responded that maybe he turned the secrecy game with his wife into an art form, maybe he is even acting our Love story? What a fabulous actor he must be, deceiving his wife for seven months. Yes, life's a stage, we are the writer, director and actor of our own game.
YOU ARE SO FUNNY. I NEVER SAW YOUR THREE D-SIDE. ONE THING I CAN SAY IS YOU HAVE REALLY GOTTEN STRONGER AND MORE POWERFUL SINCE WE HAVE CONNECTED MACHU-PICHU. I AM PROUD OF YOU AND IF THIS IS THE END AND YOU TRULY EVOLVED OUT OF US I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE PRIVILEGE OF ASSISTING SUCH A STELLAR BEING. WE ARE THE AUTHORS AND ACTORS IN OUR OWN PLAY. AND YES I HAVE BEEN COMPASSIONATE FOR A LONG TIME NOW. AND FURTHERMORE I HAVE BEEN LIVING THIS LIFE AS GOD WOULD LIVE IT IF HE WAS IN THIS SKIN WITH ALL OF THESE CONNECTIONS AND RESPONSIBILITIES AND ABILITIES.
YOU KNOW ME DEEPER THAN ANY HUMAN. I AM ONLY RECENTLY COMING INTO MY OWN POWER. YOU ARE MY TANTRIC CONSORT LIGHTING THE LIGHT THAT BLAZES INSIDE ME.
Paul sometimes made remarks like that he has been sexually suppressed for thirty years, but without explaining what he actually meant by that. He did not say how exactly he has been sexually suppressed and by whom? He often spoke in metaphors.
About his wife
I learned from the non-physical teacher Abraham to look at the world in terms of energy and vibration.
For example, the vibration of cheating/deceiving/lying is equal to the vibration of blame/shame/guilt, all vibrating at the low third dimensional frequency. So when I say cheating/deceiving/lying I mean a person's descent into the lower 3D level. I do not intend to judge or moralize here. The emanations of cheating-deceiving-lying-blame-shame-guilt all have in common that they vibrate at the same low 3D level, providing sustenance especially for reptilian energy vampires who harvest our emotions. That is why I was not comfortable with the secrecy game.
Paul wrote about his wife: ...AT THE BEGINNING SHE EVEN SUGGESTED COUNSELLING WITH THE POLYAMORY OPEN RELATIONSHIP COUNSILLOR WHEN WE HAD OUR FIRST BREAK UP BUT QUICKLY SUCCUMBED TO HER FEAR.
I WOULD CALL IT PROTECTING HER FROM A TRUTH THAT SHE IS NOT SPIRITUALLY EXPANDED ENOUGH TO APPRECIATE. HER FEAR WAS THAT YOU WOULD DEMAND MORE AND MORE OF ME AND I WOULD LEAVE HER. I LEARNED ON THE LAST DISCLOSURE THAT HER FEAR JUST DRIVES HER MAD. IF I GAVE INTO IT I WOULD BE BLOCKING MY ASCENSION WHICH INCLUDES DOING THE BEST ACTIONS ALWAYS.
AS LONG AS HER FEAR REMAINS AND SHE HASN'T VANQUISHED HER DRAGONS IN
THAT AREA I WILL PROTECT HER FROM IT AND AT THE SAME TIME CONTINUE EXERTING MY SOVEREIGN RIGHT.
I complained that equality of queen and mistress is not possible, since I play the role of the 10% gap filler who has to remain within my given boundaries. While meanwhile I become depleted in my hunger for him as my Shiva. Well, no wonder women in affairs turn into femme fatales.
At several occasions Paul said that his wife lives under constant fear of being left by him for another woman. It seemed to me his unfaithfulness became “the elephant in the room” of their marriage, and in dealing with the issue the two of them have become masters of what has been termed “Cognitive Dissonance.” They are not the only ones, it is part of the American psyche or collective unconsciousness to master Cognitive Dissonance. Being German I have some sixth sense for it, for the Germans became the masters of Cognitive Dissonance during World War II. One way to translate Cognitive Dissonance is “intentionally ignoring the truth”. This collective psychosis works through the blind spots, feeding on fear. It is archon intervention.
But his response was:
HOW MANY LIVES HAVE BEEN RUINED BY DISCLOSURE TO THOSE THAT HAVE NOT EVOLVED FAR ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO GROW FROM THE EXPERIENCE INSTEAD OF BEING OVERWHELMED AND SET BACK INSTEAD OF FORWARD? I FOLLOW THE GUIDANCE I HAVE BEEN GIVEN... FOR A MAN TO NURTURE HIS MALE POWERS HE MUST NOURISH HIS YANG ESSENCE BY ABSORBING YIN ESSENCE. MORE NOW THAN EVER THANKS FOR THE BLESSED SHAKTI HEALING HIS YANG WITH HER YIN.
FIRST OF ALL I DON'T PLAN FOR HER TO KNOW ABOUT IT AND IF SHE DOES I WILL TELL HER I AM SORRY SHE FOUND OUT BECAUSE OF HER FEAR. I WILL EXPLAIN HOW YOU HAVE TRULY FILLED A HOLE IN MY LIFE AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR IT. I WILL BRING HER TO UNDERSTANDING. THE LONGER WE GO BEFORE THIS DATE THE BETTER AS THAT WILL BE PROOF THAT YOU ARE TRULY HAPPY WITH THE ARRANGEMENT. I KNOW IT WOULD BE UPSETTING FOR HER AND I WANT IT TO BE THE LEAST PAINFUL BY WAITING EVER.
Several times Paul spoke of his wife as a “middle class lady”, meaning somebody who prefers to go with the mainstream of society, in contrary to Paul who is the artist, the musician, the eccentric, the rebel, the forward thinker.
I told Paul that his reasoning that she is not ready for the truth and that he lies out of love for her, is screwy no matter what. In exchange for the lying he gives his wife an unhealthy power over him. She uses guilt to control him. To me it is archon-influenced mind control.
He said about his wife that she doesn't have the Shakti energy that he so much craves. He also said several times that she has no interest in his art and music. He wanted me to book his gigs and sell his art work, but secretly behind his wife's back. But I didn't want any further entanglements of the secrecy game.
Again, in retrospect I wonder whether those above statements were truthful and coming from him, or were they planted into his mind for the purpose of manipulating us?
I told Paul that I wonder whether he gave me a wrong picture about his marriage situation. His response: WE HAVE NOT HAD THIS AS A SUBJECT. ACTUALLY, MY SHAKTI HAS BEEN AN AGENT OF HEALING AND WHAT SHE TOUCHED FLOURISHED. YOU BROUGHT SUCH LIGHT TO MY LIFE.
YES, MY MARRIAGE HAS GOTTEN BETTER WITH EACH QUANTUM LEAP. WOULD YOU EXPECT A DECLINE? THE REAL SHAKTI WOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE OF ASSISTANCE.
If it were true that their marriage has gotten better through me as the mistress in his life, I wonder why they did not want to keep the triangle affair?
But then at other occasions he encouraged me that “the real Shakti would ferociously fight for what is hers“ and that he wishes for greater entanglements with me.
What are the lessons here?
I am in search for clarity about this arranged and orchestrated alien love bite affair. Of course I ask myself how much I may have been infiltrated without my conscious awareness. Was it all a holographic projection? It is my belief that I was authentic at all times throughout the seven-months relationship. Or was I not?
What role did the Holon play? As I said, Paul came into my life three weeks after I had set up a holon, that is, three nested glasses, just out of curiosity. I still believe that the Holon brought us together. Was it used as a portal by those off-worlders who control humanity? We know from the Secret Space Program and ufology whistleblowers that alien races use high technology for our mind control and that all humans are micro-chipped, etherically and/or physically.
Were Paul and I bonded on purpose by aliens whose intention could have been to test us in some ways? Maybe to measure the intensity of our emotions, or to harvest the Oxytocin that we oozed in our bliss and ecstasy? Were we used as some sort of lab rats? Were we being inserted into a mythic drama of Shiva and Shakti, the divine couple?
As I said, I never felt drained during the seven months relationship, only elevated, healed, energized, amplified. Not only were we in heaven, heaven was within us.
I was pondering that I could write an erotic novel about my alien love bite story. Writing to me is the great transmuter. This way I had a medium for self-healing and overcoming the grief of the loss of my beloved Shiva. I've never written a novel; I would invoke his guide Anais Nin to be my patroness for this project. I could expand into details of my love story and thus help others to reflect for themselves whether they are under archon influence. It could especially help those couples who consider themselves Soul Mates or Twin Flames. Those of the Light are especially desired candidates for alien love bites, for we may be selected by the connoisseurs among the galactic parasites for our spiritual advancements.
Also, I could share the method of “biting them back”, namely by raising our vibration to becoming a sovereign human creator through fully living from the Heart. Then there's nothing to feed off for them and they have to go somewhere else, where fear reigns for their lower 3D sustenance.
Paul is now a different person from the man I got to know in our seven-months relationship. I wonder whether they erased his memory of our delicious and exquisite love story as Shiva and Shakti.
In his last email after the breakup Paul wrote that he recognized that he has a sexual addiction and now wears the label of a sex addict. He goes to the weekly sex-aholic anonymous meetings and others there are even worse off then he. What happened to this man? My sexual passion was equal to his, that is, I must be a sexaholic too. Without a doubt a sexaholic meeting is alien influenced and provides sustenance for those lingering interdimensional parasites. The reptilians among them are especially interested in human sexuality.
As I said at the beginning, I am documenting my life as a Lightworker. My recent and very intense experience was an alien love bite story, arranged and orchestrated by interdimensional beings. I now see it as a continuation of the interference that I have gone through over the last years.
Yet, I consider my encounter with Paul a major turning point in my life. After seven months of quantum leaping with my beloved Shiva I am now a more evolved person in all areas of my life.
In order to share my love bite story I had to tell intimate details that confirm that all three participants in this triangle affair were under archon manipulation. The fact of the alien love bite is barely known and most people will dismiss it as nonsense. That is why I want to share my treatise with the Lightworker blogosphere.
The alien love bite story is part of the overall picture. There is a spiritual warfare going on above our heads and below our feet, unnoticed by the masses in amnesia. Humanity's fate has been orchestrated by otherworldly sources. Planet Earth is a farm for the harvesting of our emotions.
We have been taken over by alien races, predatory pathogenic artificial intelligences, energy vampires, archons, or whatever we call them. They have hijacked all governments, banks and other institutions of power and control. The global population is being kept in darkness about the truth by the mass media.
However, planet Earth and her inhabitants are now leaving the cycle of the Dark Age. We are entering the era of the Golden Age for the manifestation of Heaven on Earth. In this higher frequency of 5th dimension reigns Unconditional Love, out of the reach of the dark forces.
Let there be Light in 2017!