http://www.smoking-mirrors.com/2018/11/by-way-of-serpentine-convolution.html

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(Greetings dear friends and welcome to Smoking Mirrors. We will attempt to have 3 blog postings, at least, each week. We are presently resident in a cauldron of creative fire these days, due to a radical change in personal behavior that is not going to be denied in manifesting what should have been manifested long ago---- but... as the ineffable has been telling me; “it wasn't time ...but... now it is.”therefore, a couple of books, long overdue, are in the process of being written.

It seems that they are writing themselves and at a fairly frenzied rate. I intend to make up for the time I had been wasting, due to being under the influence of one comestible or another, having deceived myself into believing that if I just went all out, storming the gates of Heaven, God would appreciate my passion and forgive me the fast tracking effort at trying to get his attention (“don't make me come down there!!!”), which I already had in the first place. All I managed to do was to suppress the natural forces that rendered me higher than I could have been on any chemical and which would have, probably, saved me a lot of grief... all the good I imagined I was getting was only effective at getting me to avoid looking in the mirror. That's no longer the case and my gratitude is beyond articulating, now that I have located my real mind, which was never my mind in the first place (grin). Subsequently, with a clear eye and an uncompromising vision, I am now able to be a good and humble servant and I pray it continues ad infinitum. Thank you one and all for sticking with me, while I groped in the darkness until finally finding the light switch. I wasn't being very smart here and there but... at least, now I know that. May God awaken in us, one and all; clarity now prevailing over all confusion and disorder.)