Why are we here? Why did we volunteer to come to the realm of the demiurge? (Me? Ego. I had to sort myself out. From my Akashic Memories, I didn't have to be here in the first place, was warned against it, but like the fool that I am. . .you know the rest.) And after we come here to be a slave to circumstance, most end up burying themselves in gratuitous obligations that enslave them further. Been guilty of that myself to a degree, but never was I so far over my head I couldn't dig my way out.

I planned my sojourn here before I got here. I was shown that during my NDE, and I'm under the impression everyone else does the same, regardless of species. Considering what we go through just by being here, I really wonder about us including myself. Is there a limit to masochistic stupidity? Me thinks not.

Gods, I can't wait to find the answer to why I've chosen to live so many lives in the cess pit, and why such a minority thinks as I do. I also recall not being all too thrilled with this place EVER in past lives. Glad this is my last one. Toxic addiction to overcome, I have concluded. I also think THE FALL is choosing to come to this place. Thanks to curiosity. The Pandora myth describes it better than the Eden myth. At least fentanyl gets you outta this place.

When I get to where I'm goin' I really hope this rubbish in the land of Maya, and perpetual inconvenience was worth it.