That which floats to the top.

Your digging to damn deep. Akashic Library? Ever been? It's the worst library in the entire star system. Everybody knows that joke,
"By the time you get your answer, you're dead."
So you're in a rut. Creativity comes from new things,experiences and life. The wonderful thing about life is that that just when you think it's getting mundane and boring you get a kick in the ass. That's life. Deal with it.

My Jesus book says unto you.

Yeah, I see your tribulations, fear, fear, and fear not, all of the worst will happen and the best will follow. Expect those you expect to fall to fall. Stand tall, you are the rock on the shore that withstands the waves. When you crumble all will be with you. Yet you will still stand, the rock.