(I'd like to post this upfront, but want to ask you first as it has your location in it)

E,

You have been through some stuff, for sure. I remember you telling me about your wife, and your divorce. Going through her stuff had to be tough. Even when we have ambivalent feelings towards our X's, there will always be ties that bind. Good, bad, and a wee bit ugly. Sorry for your loss. So happy to hear that you are healing from your trauma, physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Welcome back! Check in once in a while, your voice has been missed. I miss Cathy's (seemanynames) as well.

Lynda

PS Remind me to tell you later that I almost 'bought the farm' 3 years ago. It changes you, ... in your soul.. All is well :-))

Hi Y'all sorry long time no speak. A couple of you were kind
: enough to reach out to me over the last few years and I
: appreciate that, sorry no reply. I have been reading the
: posts, can't miss my daily dose.

: So to try and make a long story short, while everybody else
: did COVID I did cancer. Radiation and chemo, no surgery, 4
: years free now. Wife died, we'd been separated for 7 years,
: she knew it was coming, I didn't. Ten days of sorting
: through our memories with her sister and cousin. One of the
: last things she did was fix her Baby Grand and she got to
: play her piano with her marble Beethoven bust front and
: center. She drank herself to death, that's why I left, but
: of course she was the one with the problem, not me, but
: when I was being booked into County Jail New Year's Day a
: few months later I decided maybe I should go to treatment
: along with a strong nudge from some family members. I know
: it's at least a couple country songs but the truth can be
: and often is stranger than fiction. It's been two years
: last New Year's and I'm doing well, working, but haven't
: felt like writing anything at all, even on paper. Today
: Universe intervened.

: I start the day finishing up some work on my truck, and head
: to the auto parts store to get some oil cuz the trunk was
: built the year I graduated 45 years ago and it drinks it.
: My occasional hauler turned everyday commuter out of
: necessity. I come out of the store and the Goodyear blimp
: is motoring by in the sky. Probably going back to the
: hangar in Akron. King is sticking his head out of the
: passenger window and looking forward to our walk in the
: park. It's on the south shore of the Great Lake that can be
: eerie when you factor in Cleveland, Detroit and Buffalo.
: I'm in a Township outside a town of 12,000. So the King and
: I, an 85 lb. Chesapeake Retriever/Pit mix are walking along
: the beach at the city park. It's not the best beach in town
: because it's where the river flows into the lake but dogs
: are allowed. As we're walking down the beach hearts are
: drawn in the sand with two names, young love I surmise.
: Then a little further down the beach 67..., then Praise
: God...,then You Got This..., Breathe...written in the sand
: on the shore. I look up, and there are gray cotton ball
: clouds floating over the lake and one of them is a perfect
: pinwheel spiral. A minute later it dissolved. After the
: park we head to the weed dispensary for my medication, it
: helps me move with arthritis. I say hello to Big Oak as we
: pass by on the road, it was the county's bicentennial tree
: in 1976. It's massive. I estimated it at at least 12 foot
: wide. My out spanned hands reach a quarter way around. It's
: next to an old church that closed years ago with buzzards
: that hang out in the steeple. It's so big it's limbs have
: touched the ground and grown new trees. Nature was alive
: and humming with the cicadas keeping beat and I was in
: sync. We got home, I fed the beast, did laundry and got
: ready for work. Driving to work at 55 as I pass over a
: bridge I look to the right and lock eyes with a buck in
: midair coming over the guardrail. He lands, turns tail,
: bounces back over the guardrail and disappears.

: So that's why I had to write.I had to tell somebody who would
: understand. I've been healing but that phase is done.
: Synchronicity is fun. And Universe seems to want me to
: participate. Wouldn't want to be an NPC.

: Mahalo, Namaste and may all blessings come to you and yours.
: E.