Hey Lynda,
Just read your post, hope your brother is with you when you think of him, can't say the pain is gone, it's just that I can do more, I'm more structurally sound? Don't know what to say about contact, if I think of someone they tend to answer, could be me, but most of the time I think it's them, just has always been that way. I think sometimes the reason I drink is so I can listen to myself. I've found there's nothing wrong with having voices in your head, as long as you realize they can give the same bad advice as your friends. Overall, my spine is straightening,still can't look up above my head. It's a bummer when the eagles fly over. Stay in the light.