E, ... You have so many extraordinary gifts... how can you expect to live an ordinary life?

It's hard to be in the 'dark' place.. All of your life force seems to be sucked right out of you. I understand your pain and I empathize .. Not in your journey but one that might be like it. Just remember who is sucking your life force,... tell them to F-Off.. If we lose our spiritual freedom here, there is no place to escape to. ...

The material world seems to be some sort of intoxication brought about by the powers of darkness to keep elements of the light trapped inside it, or literally to keep them 'in the dark', or ignorant..... the only fruitful joy that we can obtain in life is by helping others when we can. .. Earth is a beautiful, wondrous, parasitical place.. No-thing can survive here without consuming another. ((I know you know all this)).

May the strength of your past reflect in your future.. I can’t really fully understand what you are feeling, but I can offer my compassion......

Lynda

: We squabble about masters and mysteries we want to fight, you
: won, you're here.

: My pyramid grows new ledges,I climb. The train whistles and
: hums from the wheels sliding on the edge of the turn,
: I guess I'm lucky, I know ill die there. or survive.

: regardless, ill die. again. Let the charade end. I'll meet
: you there, sword in hand. For this land. Bastards and fools
: despise me. Tartans hound me. Attack. disperse never to be
: seen again. Quaking from the pain. Spasms attacking.

: Let it end.

: I'm just fucking tired.

: But for some reason I keep waking up.

: A shadow exists in the absence of light. Which is quicker?
: Shadow or light?

: What's the speed of dark?