http://www.zippittydodah.com/2019/03/the-pressure-of-urban-cauldron-will.html

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So... the culture blog... It's probably a good thing that I have stayed away from direct interaction with 'kulchar' because these days it really is a landfill burbling with toxic wastes and a disintegrating culture as the masthead states. I do call attention to any number of things, especially those having to do with sexual mores of which, 'less' would be a more desirable word. I'm not surprised by what I see (indirectly) and hear about (indirectly). I've long expected pretty much everything that has appeared since some while ago, because 'trends' can be predicted simply as a by-product of observing trends, the same way that you can predict winding up in Kansas City, if you are on the road to Kansas City. It's not rocket surgery.

There 'seems' to be a lot of people screaming at each other. I don't want to be anywhere near that. There was a time when I did a lot of performing. It went well mostly but it always 'trended' toward more and more exposure and fame. It did take a little while to realize I didn't want to go there. After awhile I just did drugs all the time but it got in the way of drinking too much on occasion. In the end I just went with drugs. I'd convinced myself that I would find God; get God's attention, if I just made a lot of noise in my head, if I stormed the Gates of Heaven. Since I knew that God was lurking in my head, this seemed (at the time) to be a good idea and it did work finally ...but it also resulted in my having to give up drugs... drinking had already gone by that time. I didn't mind. Having God is a lot like being on really good drugs all the time and that is why it is called 'divine intoxication'. I can't explain what it is like. You have to be there. Be relentlessly persistent and you will be there. Quite simply I wanted it more than anything else and that is why I often mention this; like the I-Ching says, “persistence furthers”.